Ready for Thursday

Today was a hard day for me. I'm exhausted, frustrated and just overall done with the hospital.  Andrew is miserable.  He constantly grunts, grimaces, cries and dribbles milk out of his month.  Today I held him for almost two hours after each feed, and the second I would put him down after, he would start with these symptoms. The only thing that seems to help is if I hold him completely upright, on his stomach, on my chest.  This may be possible to do quite a bit at home if I had one child....but not with two.  None of the attendings want to treat with anything other than prevacid at this point since he continues to gain weight.  Prevacid helps with the acidity but not mobility.  Reglan is the other option, but with all the recent media focus on its neuro side effects, everyone is hesitant to use it.  Their only suggestion at this point is to eliminate dairy from my diet again.  It may also help the crazy stools he is having.  Actually, both Paige and Andrew are stooling nonstop, but Andrew has this horrible diaper rash that is also undoubtedly contributing to how miserable he is.  A dairy free diet is annoying, but I'm totally willing to do it if it will help.  I cannot stand to watch him be so miserable.  Those of you that know me know that I never cry.  Today that is all I have done.  I cried over spit up and a diaper rash!  I think I'm just done with this whole experience.  I'm ready for us all to be home and have some sense of normalcy.  And did I mention that my milk supply is completely dropping off?? I'm sure its related to stress.  Please just let it be Thursday...